Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Warm showers clear thoughts...

Last night it was after 9 p.m. when I finally was able to step foot in the shower. I was uptight and needed the moments of solitude to clear my thoughts and have time alone with my Lord. (Hey a shower is as good as a closet, isn't it? )

I was stressing as normal. Stressing is something that has become routine with me lately. I normally am a very laid back-go-with-the-flow kind of person. But in the last few months things have spiraled out of control--at least it feels that way to me. So, as I started whining a prayer out that I didn't know how I was going to keep going, I hear That Voice. Yes, you know the One. He said, "It's time." My reply...I'm committed for now. His reply, "It's been handled, you know that." My reply, "But what about for me? I do this for me." He said, "What about for them". "Oh, yeah, for them. That would be a very good idea. Ok, Lord. It's time."

Do you do that? Struggle with letting go of things when God says it's time to let go?

If you haven't figured it out, the "It's time to let go" is this study. I emailed Snoodles a couple of weeks ago and let her know that I am giving it up to her after Proverbs; but about an hour ago God told me that the time to let go is now. Starting next week, Snoodles will have full control and I will be removing myself from the blog. I just have to. I was tempted to do some Saturday ponders...because there are so many things that I like to share as I study. But I think that I've decided against that as well.

Oh and the "Them" that God was telling me that I need to focus with on Bible study. That would be my boys. Seth needs it so much right now.

I want to thank each and every one of you for joining this journey with me; and I especially want to thank Snoodles for filling in and taking over.

You are all wonderful Sisters in Christ. I'll miss the fellowship, but I will continue to follow and discuss.

Let's let this rest for the week, (I need the rest, I am sorry.) and Snoodles can pick up when and how she desires.

Tonya

4 comments:

Belinda said...

My heart is full right now. You have written some awesome study posts and I will miss you greatly. I am so very sorry about the stress you are under right now, but to everything there is a season. Your season right now is your boys and family. You started this wonderful blog, and I will always be grateful!! We will all pray for you Tonya, and for God's peace in your life.

To Snoodles, you have written some wicked awesome posts yourself and I look forward to what God has to share through you. :)

Carrie P. said...

You know sometimes it is hard to give things up but we have to listen to God. He knows what is best for us and it good that you are listening. Thanks for sharing His word.
Blessing!

Snoodles said...

Tonya, I am wiping away the tears as I type here....I have learned so much from your posts, and my toes have received some much needed attention. You have so much to give us. But we would be selfish to respond in any other way than this: We love you; we appreciate you; and we will welcome you back with open arms if ever you have an opportunity to post here in the future. Follow God's leading. Take a deep breath and put your foot out there, and then take another step after that. I love you, girl! You are indeed my sister in Christ, and I have a heart full of respect and affection for you. I will try my best and rely fully on God to take on this responsibility. I hope all of y'all will pray for me.

Belinda said...

Wow Snoodles! That's exactly how I feel about it. And yes, we will pray for you too!!!