Last night it was after 9 p.m. when I finally was able to step foot in the shower. I was uptight and needed the moments of solitude to clear my thoughts and have time alone with my Lord. (Hey a shower is as good as a closet, isn't it? )
I was stressing as normal. Stressing is something that has become routine with me lately. I normally am a very laid back-go-with-the-flow kind of person. But in the last few months things have spiraled out of control--at least it feels that way to me. So, as I started whining a prayer out that I didn't know how I was going to keep going, I hear That Voice. Yes, you know the One. He said, "It's time." My reply...I'm committed for now. His reply, "It's been handled, you know that." My reply, "But what about for me? I do this for me." He said, "What about for them". "Oh, yeah, for them. That would be a very good idea. Ok, Lord. It's time."
Do you do that? Struggle with letting go of things when God says it's time to let go?
If you haven't figured it out, the "It's time to let go" is this study. I emailed Snoodles a couple of weeks ago and let her know that I am giving it up to her after Proverbs; but about an hour ago God told me that the time to let go is now. Starting next week, Snoodles will have full control and I will be removing myself from the blog. I just have to. I was tempted to do some Saturday ponders...because there are so many things that I like to share as I study. But I think that I've decided against that as well.
Oh and the "Them" that God was telling me that I need to focus with on Bible study. That would be my boys. Seth needs it so much right now.
I want to thank each and every one of you for joining this journey with me; and I especially want to thank Snoodles for filling in and taking over.
You are all wonderful Sisters in Christ. I'll miss the fellowship, but I will continue to follow and discuss.
Let's let this rest for the week, (I need the rest, I am sorry.) and Snoodles can pick up when and how she desires.